Izinkan Aku Mengenangmu, Ayah .. :)

I am down now, when every tears down and every night seems darker than it as usual. I just  always thinking and wondering about something that used to happen to me, it is always repeated in almost every three years.  How come i have a seat and a sleep with a relax when my heart in a worry, when i fell that i've been react wrong. Sometimes they didn't understand to what i've been through. Ten years ago, my father was died on Idul Fitri 2003. I was at the third class of elementary school at that time. Cried and just a cried that i can do, i saw my mom, sisters and brother who cried too. I almost hate my own God and asked " why did You let my dad go and leave my family ? " But that such a most stupid questions after i learned about life, you meet peoples then you'll left by them, and that is my dad.

Oke, now i am going to remind again what happen ten years ago, when my father died. That was a nice afternoon, when we were gather in our family in a beauty situation. Ya, right, because that was an Idul Fitri's day, November, 25th 2003.

Five pm, my dad felt something in his chest, mom just didn't has a negative thinking with that so do with me. But, five and thirty pm, he was scream in a pain. Directly all of neighbours came to my house then helped my dad. Some of them focused on a pray, i am cried, my mom, sisters and my brother. Everyone crazy in a worry, but, what we can do if God has decided something that has to happen. Six pm, exactly my father brethed his last breath by saying " La illahaillalah Muhammadarrasaullulah ". And that was the climax when everyone there who also watched that seconds and cried.

Yesterday, was the 10th years celebration of my father's death, thank God, my family have enough money and we've been held a litle celebration by praying together at my litle second house. My family and me hope that we all who still given life could be a better person and for my dad and all man who passed away before us given the bestiest place at hereafter on a beautyful heaven.

Dad, i miss you, mom miss you too, we all miss you,,,

Lagu ini buat bapak disana :')

"Against All Odds"
(feat. Mariah Carey)

[Shane:]
How can I just let you walk away,
Just let you leave without a trace,
When I'm standing taking every breath,
With you, ooohhh,
You're the only one who really knew me,
At all.

[Mariah:]
How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave,
Cause we shared the laughter and the pain,
And even shared the tears,
You're the only one who really knew me at all.

So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
If you're coming back to me it's against all odds,
And that's what I've got to face.

[Mark:]
I wish I could just make you turn around,
Turn around and see me cry,
There's so much I need to say to you,
So many reasons why,
You're the only one who really knew me at all.

[Mariah:]
So take a look at me now,
There's just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
So there's just an empty space,
But to wait for you is all I can do,
When that's what I've got to face.

Take a good look at me now,
Cause I'll be standing here,
([Mark:] Standing here)
And you coming back to me is against all odds,
And that's the chance I've got to take.

[Westlife:]
Got to take
Got to take

[Mariah:]
Ooh
Take a look at me now

[Westlife:]
Take a look at me now. 

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